I was 28 and he was just hitting It was my first steady, long-term relationship, and we did what I used to think of as "grown-up" things. Like having Sunday football parties or fighting in Home Depot about what color to paint an accent wall in our living room. We made complex weekday dinners to distract ourselves from the fact that we were both pretty bored with each other.
Advertisement - Continue Reading Below Of course, I wasn't really grown up, because I had never even been tested for HIV at my yearly checkup at Planned Parenthood , where I went for primary care. Taking care of your health is more adult than playing house with a boyfriend, yet, even though I had been tested for STIs, I had never thought of getting an HIV test. But one day, randomly, I added the HIV rapid test to the list of things to do before intake to my pap smear appointment.
I thought it was a formality I should finally take care of. Most Popular The positive result almost didn't compute at first. What does that mean? I kept asking the nurse who took me upstairs at the Margaret Sanger Center in the East Village for a second blood test to confirm the rapid test result. I was in shock that simply sleeping with probably close to a hundred men throughout my 20s — in college, in Rome, Italy where I lived for five years, in New York City upon my return — and not being strict about using condoms could have such a serious consequence.
I know how that sounds. It's embarrassing to admit that now, but I really did ignorantly think sex was all fun and games. For me, "dating," was basically a euphemism for casual sex. I had no type, no goal, really, and a bad one-night stand was just as much as fun as one that turned into a mini-romantic fling. I naively thought I was invincible, that one day a hookup would lead to true Disney princess-style love, and never assumed that HIV would have anything to do with my life.
After my diagnosis, Matt and I stopped making dinner together, speaking to each other, and sleeping in the same bed. He was negative, and had been getting tested his entire life. We broke up within the year. There was a positive aspect to my HIV, though I didn't know that then. It woke me up and made me realize what I needed and wanted from a partner.
Matt never been a good match for me, really; my diagnosis just shined a spotlight on that. The only bad thing about breaking up with Matt was the realization that I would have to start dating again. But when you're the kind of person who equates dating with dinners, drinks, and casual sex, HIV can put a real damper on all that.
I naively thought I was invincible, that one day a hookup would lead to true Disney-princess-style love, and never assumed that HIV would have anything to do with my life. Advertisement - Continue Reading Below Dating after a breakup is already hard enough. The filming of our breakup was a month later. Max and I were struggling with normal relationship issues. I felt guilty for ending it because we love each other so much and I broke a commitment we had made to be together.
At that time, I was overwhelmed with the struggles in our relationship so I felt breaking it off was necessary. We got back together and, aside from the twist in our story, I am so glad HIV was brought to light. The more we talk about it, the safer everyone can be in all areas. They have also thanked me for opening their eyes to something they knew nothing about, that people with HIV are just like them: This was my goal.
As someone who was born with HIV, how did you approach dating and disclosure at an early age? When I was younger, I struggled a bit with disclosure. I started dating when I was I always disclosed within the first few days and before going further than kissing. My struggle was the fear of their reaction and, possibly, rejection. I was scared they might not want to date me, they would freak out Over the years, after trying many different ways of disclosing, I have found that the best way is without preparation, come out with the truth and immediately educate them.
I stay calm, shut my fears down and communicate that I know my worth. The newly diagnosed have a tough time figuring out the right time to have the HIV talk. My advice would be to stay calm. Try to understand where they are coming from. Put your feelings aside for a minute, even though it hurts. Understanding their side and giving them time to process is important.
It is OK if they need time. Most people have heard nothing but lies and horror stories about HIV and AIDS. So we must allow them time to ingest the new information we are giving them. If they do not decide to be involved with you, hold your head high and know someone will love you, understand you and accept you just the way you are.
True Life: Dating With HIV
I Am HIV Positive. This Is What It's Like to Date.
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